I'm Horny!

It just hit me. I haven't had any sexual intercourse for more than a month. Because of some minor complications. At night time I tend to feel lustful. I usually fight the ardent feeling by doing other stuff. Anything that'll keep my mind off of it. But the more I try to curb the desire the more horny I get. Pushing it aside (mentally) is not helping.

Seeing him everyday. Being in close proximity. Smelling his sweat. Feeling his touch on my skin. It's driving me crazy.

I feel so guilty when I pray to God, asking Him, begging Him to speed up my recovery.

ASAP.

Mind Your Own Business

As the day settles into night I can't help but think about today's events. Talking to someone on the phone asking me personal and pertinent questions. Got stood up. Another broken promise. Had a stern talk to one of the helpers. My mind running wild with assumptions.

For a jobless individual like me I had quite a busy day.

And deep within, I just want to scream at the people around me. Especially the one who's trying to weed out information. Why do folks want to know my business? What I do and who I do it with is none of your business but mine. I can mind my own so why don't you do the same?

Some people are quick to judge. Fair enough. As long as you zip it up or choose to decide to hire a shrink who'll digest all the shit you dump on him/her.

Stay out of my life. I muster courage to spit it out to you but at the last minute I let my weakness overpower my anger. Maybe it's a good thing.

For you.

A Brief Intro

DEMETER.

My name.

Okay. It’s not. I wish though.

I’ve chosen to blog under a pseudo because I want to express myself freely.

It’s not my first blog. I am a diligent blogger but recently I’ve started to feel a reluctance to write about the people in my life. For the simple reason that they are reading whatever I’m writing. It’s no longer my personal space where I can mudsling anyone. Hence Demeter was born.

But why Demeter?

Wasn’t she a Greek goddess or something?

Yes she was!

I’ve always been fascinated by Greek mythological and historical figures. And Demeter is the closest I can relate to. Aphrodite also, minus the beauty part. I am pretty but not that pretty!

In any case, if you like reading random blogs, especially nonsensical ramblings – sometimes not – then stay tuned!