I Know

I know he loves me.

I know he doesn't want to hurt me.

I know he would do all he can to make me happy.

I know he's extremely stressed over some issues which need to be taken care of.

I know the length he'd go to put a smile on my face.

I know he'd readily apologise if I tell him he hurt me.

I know the love we have is strong.

I know he wouldn't disrespect me on purpose.

I know he would like for me and him to move to a place where no one knows us and as a result can't hurt us.

I know I'm his most prized possession.

I know how he cares about my feelings.

I know. I know. I know.

He loves me. He said it. He showed it to me. He shows it to me any chance he gets.

I love him too. Very much.

HE. KNOWS.

Answers

Part of me wants to believe his story but the other half wants to lash out at him and scream: "I'm not stupid and I know..."

It hurts. I want to go far away. From him. Just for a while.

Only he knows what's the truth but my trust in him has gone...He's treading on very thin ice. Only the love I have for him is keeping him by my side. For how long will the love last? I don't know. Time will tell.

I get angry when he stands me up and lies to me; but when I see him all the fury disappears. My heart swells with relief and love. My heart tells me to forgive and forget. My brain wouldn't let me forget.

I'm confused. Is it love? Is it an obsession? How will I know? It's my first time.

I need answers.

I need peace.

I need him.